OCD is winng

My OCD is still out of control. The nights are the worst. I fall asleep around 11pm and wake up about 45 to a few hours later and clean until the alarm goes off. Then work out, shower and go to work as soon as Star arrives. I take a nap during my lunch break. Come home use the restroom because I can't go at work and spend the evening with the kids once they are in bed I get everything ready for tomorrow. Have my cigar and whiskey and fall asleep. Then it starts over again.

My head hurts daily, my outbursts are horrible and I struggle to eat.

If it wasn't for the kids and dog......