The depression comes back stronger and more frequently than ever before
If you don't want to read my "whining", GTFO out and block me, I don't need to read your opinion in the comments. This place is like my diary in a way and I'll write what I want.
The su*cidal thoughts are so strong. I've lost hope in everything. I have no support system. Therapy has been useless and though the meds do help, they're not as strong as my brain and its dark thoughts. The chronic pain doesn't help, it's getting worse too, and the older I get, I fear one day being in too much pain to care for myself. Which makes me want to end it all sooner rather than later.
I don't want to be here anymore. It's just that simple. I'm struggling hard just to go through the motions of daily life when I really DON'T CARE about my life at all. This feeling is torture, I want to crawl out of my own skin.
The su*cidal thoughts are so strong. I've lost hope in everything. I have no support system. Therapy has been useless and though the meds do help, they're not as strong as my brain and its dark thoughts. The chronic pain doesn't help, it's getting worse too, and the older I get, I fear one day being in too much pain to care for myself. Which makes me want to end it all sooner rather than later.
I don't want to be here anymore. It's just that simple. I'm struggling hard just to go through the motions of daily life when I really DON'T CARE about my life at all. This feeling is torture, I want to crawl out of my own skin.
41-45, F
