I am ashamed of my depression

Ashamed to admit it
Ashamed to talk about it
Ashamed to say anything about it, thinking I'd drown people with it... that it'd be too much on them. Even online.
Ashamed of myself who could not ward off myself from it.
And I hate it. And I hate myself because of it.

I only percieve myself as a ray of sunshine and I cannot accept myself otherwise. I hold myself on high standards so when I steep this low I feel disgusted.

I am on antidepressants (yes, because I am ashamed of that I didn't tell a soul about it)... so there are good days... but days like today still exist. Those are nightmares.

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Infamous607 · 51-55, M

It's a condition...no thing more nothing else. You don't see people with kidney problems hiding their kidney meds.
It is what you are. Accept it and find a way to work around it.

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AoNoSora

@Infamous607 You are pragmatic. Life needs to be like that. But the emotions need time to accept the facts.

Infamous607 · 51-55, M

@AoNoSora
I understand that. But at some point we have to take action. Say fuck it. This are the cards I was dealt. I can sit around and watch the world crumble around me, or I can try to do the best I can with those cards.

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moonlightlullaby · 46-50, F

Well congratulations, today was your first step in talking about it. It's nothing you can help and probably over half the world has too.

AoNoSora

@moonlightlullaby Thank you for your empathy

Wiseacre · F

Why would you be ashamed of something so common? Not being depressed is more uncommon. You have lots of company.

PiecingBabyFaceTogether · 31-35, M

You are not alone 🫂

Askeladd · 31-35, M

Exercise, meditate, read stoic philosophy. Be consistent. It will work.

in10RjFox · M

Depression is a contagious disease if spread by word of ???? ..

So what do you get by spreading it and infecting others ?

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