I am having a very hard day today because of my depression... but I still got up and took a shower

@SomeMichGuy It is a vicious cycle.

@AoNoSora It's a cycle.

You can choose to see each day as an opportunity or some burden.

@SomeMichGuy
It is a hard.
Most of today (for once I have a free weekend where I don't work!) I spent it wallowing and feeling sorry for myself.
It is shameful. I hate myself for it. I did this small step of showering but I can't bring myself to do anything else. I'm embarrassed of everything I am right now. Because I usually hold myself to high standards of being productive and doing things right.
I am just hating on myself so bad rn.

I don't know why I am spouting all this nonesense on you now. Sorry about that.

@AoNoSora No, it's ok.

When you think about what you'd LIKE to do, what comes to mind?

@SomeMichGuy
There are stuff I HAVE to do now.
Like getting ready for tomorrow and reading about something at work that I have to present.
Also, I need to clean my room cause it is been a mess and it is something that I am ashamed of as well.
And I need to take care of the waredrobe too and write my priorities and plans for the future in a piece of paper (I havent done that in 01 month which is a looot for me. I can't function without planning).

I am not able of thinking about something I ENJOY just for the sake of enjoying. Usually they are things I need to get done in my life.
And when I do them, I feel happy.

@AoNoSora the only issue is that I am not able to function right now. I feel like my brain is sluggish and everything feel so so so heavy. And I'm anxious about everything going on.

@AoNoSora Ok, start with the wardrobe and the room.

Congratulate yourdelf, take a break.

Then do your reading.

Make sure you take notes.

Finish other "getting ready for tomorrow" things.

The congratulate yourself AND BE A HUMAN

Ask someone to get ice cream with you, etc.

Or masturbate and relieve this!