I know no one will read this because I have no pfp but I'm just venting anyway.

Severe depression is not always visible. In those of us with a clean pretty living space and good hygiene. We smell good. We exercise and pray and meditate . We smile at strangers and don't cause anyone any problems. Until it's too late.
People claim they love us. We might have a family member and even a significant other . And they give no shits that we are a thread away from death at any moment. We didn't scream. We don't fight.
Until we do.
Our last scream. I hate this world and the shallow level of it. My user is not Idontbelonghere .... On this site. Which is also true but that's another story.
There is no recourse when you don't fit anywhere. I am not well enough to be basic but too intelligent to be happy settling.

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LunadelobosIAMTHEDRAGON · F

You have a 100% success of survival rate, that's what I am sometimes told and/or I read it somewhere.

I know parts of the toolbox are:
Supports, that are outside of yourself. It can be a therapist, a friend or family member, etc.
Support groups.
In my case, some books actually do offer me great solace.

Helpful 'Distractions' if things become really dire, you must know, moods are tender and volatile things, our minds are our best friends but can be our worst enemies.

Try to keep in mind that you're not what you think, I know this can be an impossible task at times:
and that is when you want to have a crisis plan in place: Make sure you're SAFE.
For me, it can mean I keep my balcony closed and do NOT go out on it. For each of us, it is different.
Keeping crisis lines AT HAND can be vital: 988, or 911.
If you need to vent or rant, call a Warm line.

Also, if you are HERE, perhaps consider medication.
It does help tremendously, if you find the correct drugs: I am usually anti drugs, but it helped me decades ago.

Finally. Know that you are loved, valued and a part of tis world. Please take good care of yourself.