How to determine if you’re depress?

I feel like im depress. I just want to drink everyday and sleep all day just to escape from reality. I hate if i wake and need to come back to reality. Everyday just feels getting worse i dont have any will to live i just want to disappear or have amnesia. I dont like my life. I feel like i have no purpose. I feel like ive never really been happy. I no longer want to be with people and distancing myself to them. I just want to get drunk on my own until i make myself get to sleep. My mind is a a mess its always loud 😭😭😭