Im so unbelievably stressed

Im thinking of dropping this math class just because there’s no way Im going to pass it at this rate. Im drowning in debt with no way to pay it off, my second book needs a major revamping since once I properly edited it it’s less than 280 pages, idk why Im even trying to be a writer. It was already nearly impossible to make it as one and now with this chat gpt crap basically writing itself it’s next to impossible. I just feel like this will be my whole life, just constant stress and anger and working dead end jobs forever. I want to be more grateful for what I have to be honest and it makes me feel guilty because I have more than a lot of people in the world do. My therapist got angry with me because Im so angry and filled with murderous rage and struggle to control it. Im just so tired of being enraged all the time even when I have no reason to be, it’s gotten so bad Im thinking of trying to convince my psychiatrist to get me electric shock therapy just to feel calm. Whatever, Im just ranting and venting and should probably go to sleep.