My depression has become a full blown eating disorder

I don't remember when it started, but I noticed that I'm having reluctance towards food now. I know I need to eat so I can take my meds. I used to love food very much and I still do think about what I'd like to eat at every meal time but when it comes to actually eat it, I'd feel disgust and it makes me nauseated. And if I forced myself to eat, I'd struggle to keep it down to the point I can't function right.

Does anyone have the same experience? How do I overcome this?

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Graylight · 51-55, F

Move your body.

It's good for your mental condition (dopamine release and physical exertion, and it's good for your body, obviously. you don't describe an actual eating disorder, but you may be overlapping some wires with changes in your lifestyle. Start by doing the easy things - eat right, move, work on your mind - and if that doesn't help, you can reach out for help.

mistfox · 36-40, F

@Graylight thank you for the suggestions. I've been forcing myself to go for a morning walk at least 3 times a week for a month now. It does help making myself tired and able to sleep at night without rely too much on sleep med. It didn't help with the food problem tho. That one is new. I don't understand why it happened.

Do you have any suggestions on how to work on mind?

Graylight · 51-55, F

@mistfox Cross addictions and co-occurring conditions aren't uncommon. The mind can be tricky. My first suggestion and encouragement is regular talk therapy (CBT). Everyone can benefit from an objective voice and insightful feedback.

There's a site where lots of info, exercises and resources are printable for free. Try www.therapistaid..com. You might find something that resonates with you. Good luck.

mistfox · 36-40, F

@Graylight thank you so much for your help. ♥ I will check the link. Everyone here has been really kind to me and I'm so grateful for that. ♥
Xx

DarkHeaven ·

@mistfox baby steps. small steps, lead to big change over time. just remember to be patient and kind to you too.

mistfox · 36-40, F

@DarkHeaven I shall remember that. ♥ I think I've wronged myself all these years by being so hard on myself to be better again and again. It's hard that people around me are doing that to me on daily basis but I didn't realised I was doing the same thing to me too. I've been busy putting everyone else first that I've forgotten to take myself into consideration. This quote was like a huge wake up call.

My life is a little brighter and my heart a little less heavy today.

Thank you, from the bottom of my heart for all the advices, suggestions and encouragements from all of you guys. I never thought I'd find such precious people here. ♥

Baby steps. Xx

Graylight · 51-55, F

@mistfox There are some really great people here who'll be happy to reach out when you need them. Best of luck - we're all in this thing together,

DarkHeaven ·

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