I want to kill myself

You matter. Please stay. I was thinking the same thing. Everyone bullies me. But they are not important. Karma will get them all. They are miserable.

There are other occupations out there. There are also a lot of very different elements that decide how much a performer brings in. Comparing yourself to others can be healthy and deciding about goals. But if comparing yourself to others is just demoralizing, try to remember that everything worth doing builds you up and points you in the direction you want to go. If you're not happy at work, look for something else and cut yourself some slack. I've seen others point this out, it takes tremendous courage to put your body on display. You are probably stronger than you think you are.

Don't do it. Call a suicide hotline please if you are serious. I care and so does God!

I don't know who is giving laughing reaction on this serious post!
My dear, i proud of u because u are trying your best to do new things in your life!
You don't need to prove yourself to others what they think about u...
Keep doing and stay alive as life is not all about just proving yourself...life have more vast observation....

You are brave to be a stripper.
You get bad night's and good nights.

In your spare time why don't you do a computer course? It will build up your confidence.

Maybe stripping is not your thing maybe you should reevaluate your options.

Well a stripper is a tough job. Ill admit for sure.