I Feel My Depression Coming Back

I'm not suicidal this time, but it feels like a pain growing larger inside me. I'm not satisfied. I don't finish much, as I'm constantly starting over. I feel like my entire life has been start-restart-never finish. I feel like there are various personalities inside me. One is always unsatisfied with the actions of the previous, so I start over and do it differently. I don't know how to get out of this cycle.

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lovelywarpedlemon

When all else fails I like to look at space... Under the stars or looking at photorealistic scales online that show how Earth is smaller than a grain of sand.

JHNTHN · 31-35, M

@lovelywarpedlemon Yeah, it's pretty terrifying, also considering the Fermi paradox. We're all alone in this massive dead and cold place. I try to think about trees and flowers, things I can touch.

lovelywarpedlemon

@JHNTHN for me looking at space is peaceful. I imagine myself as elements without the pain of being contained in a limited body. I feel part of something big and beautiful beyond comprehension yet understood by all. I even feel comforted by the unknown, idk why. Cute animals and flowers are always nice too lol. I hope you find something good for you.

JHNTHN · 31-35, M

@lovelywarpedlemon I may try that before bed. I'll give it my best shot. 🙂

lovelywarpedlemon

@JHNTHN sometimes it just helps to talk with someone 🤗