Anytime I meet someone with whom

I might form a romantic relationship, I stop because I know that this would never work out . Almost all of them are not familiar with mental health issues and hardly get me . They were sympathetic and very caring but our worlds never matched . I understand them but I don't relate to them
This made me think that some day I would find a person who would be as depressed as me and we will complete each other. Now as I look at SW and see men women struggling with depression and anxiety, I realise that I relate to them but I don't understand them . Yes they have same problems like mine but I don't understand myself too .
Truth is its very hard to form meaningful relationship unless you are healed . I was thinking that the walls were around them making me unable to see them , understand them or relate to them but
The walls are around me .