This one i will never figure out. [I Battle Depression]

I occasionally like to flirt a bit, i rarely get a reaction at all and when i do it is usually negative. On the rare occasion that i receive a positive reaction...i spiral down. It makes no sense i know but it is true. I should clarify that this started long before i was married so it isn't simply guilt. Dealing with depression and a serious self-esteem problem can really make life suck sometimes.