I Battle Depression and Anxiety

Exposure. Something has happened. Something, according to her, that that "something" would risk freeing what she has spent years trying to shield. This is serious to her. You see, this girl has been burned so many times that something as simple as a gust of wind can bring pain so great it brings her to her knees. It cripples her...takes ahold of her.....twists and turns her thoughts from calm and serene, to something she fears most.......exposure. it frightens her to death. The very thought of someone being able to get inside her head and still want to be around her sounds almost impossible. Shes hardened over the years; became an even harder shell of her former self. In fact, shes shut herself off from life completely. Decided from here on out, she would not ever been in a relationship, get married, or even have children. Then someone came along....someone shes had a small history with, and somehow...this someone brought feelings back that she thought were long gone....for the first time in almost 3 years...she has feelings for this someone, and it scares the hell out of her. "How could I let this happen?" She would ask herself as she looks in the mirror, trying to analyze the waves of static swimming through her head. I can tell shes scared, scared of letting anyone in again, afraid of being exposed and vulnerable. With relationships.... it's all about vulnerability. Someone once said "Love is giving someone the power to destroy you, but trusting them not to." For some reason, when she is speaking to him....I can see the icicles melting away from her shoulders.....she turns her head to look and her eyes widen with fear..her heart is pounding in her ears and it's too loud to hear anything else. I wish I could put a hand on her shoulder and tell her it's ok to be vulnerable sometimes....but sometimes.....the best way to find the solution to a problem is to attack it hands on. I believe she will be ok, she just has to believe in herself