I Battle Depression

I was hoping that someone would notice how broken I am... how I needed help... no one, no one notices. Maybe, I am really good at hiding it... covering it up.

I am broken.

I am drowning with all the pain I've caused myself to feel. Noone knows how I am hurting. I was hoping that someone looks at me so deeply that they see the misery inside. I was hoping... was hoping but, maybe, not anymore. I've given up. No one really cares enough to see it. No one. 😞

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Mindful · 56-60, F

One realization that helped me is to learn that there is absolutely no one, Not one person who can be that one and only help for you. The closest to having someone to lean on, to rely on completely is faith in God and hope. It is the CONCEPT of God-our creator, loving us, that you can count on. Only our creator, Believes in us enough to have created us. That’s it. A super hero human being, a “true ever lasting love” the “perfect friend“, who total gets me, the perfect parent, does NOT exist. We must accept our imperfections. And realize that even the best person out there is imperfect, and trying to fight their own emotional battles. The idea that other people are better or stronger is false. Everyone is responsible for finding their own path ...Although many people are kind and try to help others. The idea that someone else can actually save you is false. Only you Can save yourself. Others inspire. You decide the next step. If you are severely depressed only, with the help of medication and counseling, excercise, and positive thinking, and hoping and praying, can you begin to help yourself.