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I Battle Depression

I was hoping that someone would notice how broken I am... how I needed help... no one, no one notices. Maybe, I am really good at hiding it... covering it up.

I am broken.

I am drowning with all the pain I've caused myself to feel. Noone knows how I am hurting. I was hoping that someone looks at me so deeply that they see the misery inside. I was hoping... was hoping but, maybe, not anymore. I've given up. No one really cares enough to see it. No one. 😞
Mindful · 56-60, F
One realization that helped me is to learn that there is absolutely no one, Not one person who can be that one and only help for you. The closest to having someone to lean on, to rely on completely is faith in God and hope. It is the CONCEPT of God-our creator, loving us, that you can count on. Only our creator, Believes in us enough to have created us. That’s it. A super hero human being, a “true ever lasting love” the “perfect friend“, who total gets me, the perfect parent, does NOT exist. We must accept our imperfections. And realize that even the best person out there is imperfect, and trying to fight their own emotional battles. The idea that other people are better or stronger is false. Everyone is responsible for finding their own path ...Although many people are kind and try to help others. The idea that someone else can actually save you is false. Only you Can save yourself. Others inspire. You decide the next step. If you are severely depressed only, with the help of medication and counseling, excercise, and positive thinking, and hoping and praying, can you begin to help yourself.
xixgun · M
Most people are oblivious to anything outside their own skin
Mindful · 56-60, F
Hmmm I don’t think I’m kicking anyone down at all. Not at all. I’m sorry you feel that way about my post. Im saying this is what people feel like, just like the OP. @xixgun
xixgun · M
@Mindful seems a bit like a scolding, when what they asked for was empathy
Mindful · 56-60, F
Hmm thanks for your response and for sharing your perrespective in a kind tone.,I do know that when I made some realizations for my own personal self, when depressed , as a young Person, this was a harsh realization. In this particular post, “most people are oblivious” is hard for some people to understand or believe. One way to understand it is to ask oneself “am I aware of how others feel?” No? That’s how other are... they too are unaware of how I am feeling. In fact I am Just agreeing with the person who said, most people are oblivious. How can we understand this? By asking ourselves, “what do I know about others?” If one is depressed, they are likely to think they are alone in their suffering, in their thinking process, and they need to know that they are not alone, not the only one, and in fact, parts of them, are like many others, it’s part of human nature. It just is. knowing we are just like others is comforting. humanity isn't always pretty. It’s not a bad thing either. It simply is what it is. Like the sun rising and falling. It doesn’t matter whether we like it or not. It may even cause skin cancer. It may bring joys in the summer. It’s just sunny. Yet there’s nothing wrong with that. If we think everything imperfect is bad, or that we are extremely different from others, and we isolate ourselves, this can be dangerous and makes us feel even more alone, and fearful. For some reason some people equate being different or having a weakness is bad. If so, then we are all bad, that’s when we have trouble accepting ourselves. The idea that we are bad is what leads to depression. The truth is we are all alike. It’s just being human. I am aware that I can be utterly oblivious of others. Some days I am so in tune with others. This is normal and it is Neither good or bad. Do I prefer to be seen considerate and thoughtful? Yes. But what is the truth? I am both, but the reality is, as a human, I can get wrapped up in myself. Still, being consumed with ones life, is natural. It’s humanity. It’s okay. I know I am not the only one who is oblivious at times. I should not hate myself or anyone else because I am human. The path to happiness is acknowledging we are all human, And therefore have likenesses to others. I just want you to understand me, and my deepest perspective. Since my response was short, I understand that it sounded like a beat down so I’m very glad you said that. It is meant to be truthful not ugly. @xixgundoes a depressed person need to know that they are oblivious to others? Absolutely. It brings self awareness and may inspire a need for balance. But that is their choice.
greenmountaingal · 70-79, F
I am sorry you are going through this dark time in your life. Wish there were an easy answer. Just know I, too, have battled anxiety and depression and it is tough. Do what you can, seek help if needed, and hang tough. You can beat this.
DaveyTaco · 31-35, M
Soyyoprincesa · 31-35, F
@DaveyTaco thank you.
masterofyou · 70-79, M
see your brokenness I know what you go through you have a soul it needs to heal. If you need to talk i'm here..🙂
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Soyyoprincesa · 31-35, F
@pomanJoe forgive who?
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