I Am Unhappily Married and Depressed Over It

Hello everyone my name is Janet I am the proud mother of two beautiful daughters and the grandmother of six wonderful grandchildren. I work hard to pay my bills. I feel like I am a good person. I care about other people's happiness and I am unhappily married. I endure so much mental abuse that I cry myself to sleep. Right now my husband isn't speaking to me because I bought Pepsi and he wanted water for this he hasn't spoken to me for almost three days. I want to leave him but the guilt is stopping me. He is 26 years older then me and has no one. He hates children including our own and our own grandchildren. He hates animals and I believe he doesn't love me. I am sad and lonely.