I Battle Depression On My Own

I don't like to ask for help because a lot of the people around me have their own schedules, chores, and health that they need to tend to. I can't always be dependent on others to help me get done what I need to do, or to drop everything any time I need something.

I'm alone in this dark reality that I am useless and pointless. I'm picking up bad habits and becoming a person I never wanted to be or thought I could be. Yet, here I am. Having a "drink" every night. I sleep too much or I don't sleep at all. I've got a couple of stories on here that I don't even remember posting, I'm starting to dissociate so much. Everything keeps getting worse and I don't know know how to get out of the rabbit hole anymore. I'm tired of fighting and I'm tired of me.