I Battle Depression

I battle MDD (major depression disorder) along with severe anxiety originated from my several uncommon phobias. Nobody in my family, or circle of friends, community, etc knows about it, nor care. So I've been simply haging in there since I was a little girl without getting any kind of help. I am fully aware I need professional help, medication, therapy and so on, and as soon I can pay for a treatment, I will do it.

Till that moment arrives, I keep pretending i'm fine and super cool. That's why everyone thinks I'm normal, I have mostly "perfect" days and my self-esteem is so high that i'm kinda snotty and proud. I deserve an Oscar for my performance! ;-P

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SimplyK · 61-69, M

Depression combined with anxiety is such a hard battle to fight...I fight this daily...I do not take any pills for either the depression or anxiety. I will smoke some pot when my anxiety gets out of hand to calm myself down...

Good luck to you Hun...

2cool4school · 46-50, F

I do similar things to control my anxiety and chronic pain. Thank you too :)

CatLady · 41-45, F

Thank you so much for your words! My best wishes to you too! ...my phobias have increased so much these last 3 years that I'm almost having panick attacks, that's why I'm tempted to take some pills like valium, diazepam, etc without prescription, specially when I have to travel, because there's people around who doesn't know about my condition and would only look at me judging with their eyes.

2cool4school · 46-50, F

I feel for you Hun hope things get better soon glad you know to seek help if needed just wish you didn't have to wait. It's like they say best to strike while the irons hot but you know you so I wish you the best :/

CatLady · 41-45, F

Money is a huge problem right now for me, but I hope to find a good job that pays me enough to cover my treatment expenses. Thank you very much for your sweet words.

Underconstruction · F

Es muy difícil tener que lidiar con ambas cosas. Lo peor es que a veces ni la terapia ni los medicamentos funcionan. Lo más molesto es la actitud de mucha gente que cree que esto es algo que podemos cambiar a voluntad.

Sin embargo sí se de tratamientos y terapias que han sido efectivos en algunos casos.

Espero que encuentres lo que sea mejor para ti.

2cool4school · 46-50, F

It's nothing hun if I can help in anyway please ask :)

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