I Fight Depression and Loneliness Everyday

I don’t have any friends, because I don’t really try to make any. I’m very isolated and it’s all my own doing. I try to numb myself to the loneliness, by drawing, cooking, watching movies, playing games and listening to music. I make all kinds of excuses to avoid anything social. The only time I leave the house is to go to work, walk my dogs or get food shopping.

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AliceTinker · 51-55, F

You sound like you have a full life though, I've got into that pattern in the past, if you have a lot to do it's easy to find an excuse to be a hermit.
It's only a problem if you think it's a problem though
Are you unhappy?

Chaosforthefly · 31-35, F

I am unhappy, as much as I hate to admit it. I want a relationship (I’ve never been in one) and there’s little chance of that since I never meet anyone. I need to make changes.@AliceTinker

AliceTinker · 51-55, F

@Chaosforthefly a few years ago I didn't have any close friends it was a conscious decision but I really didn't realise how unhappy I was I preferred to be at home with my animals.
I still prefer to be at home with my animals but I have good friends now that I can meet and it's good for mental health to have a good laugh with someone else.
You are completely right change doesn't happen unless we make changes ourselves and it doesn't matter what that change is, if you change something anything! It invites more change in.

AliceTinker · 51-55, F

@AliceTinker I didn't mean to say change quite so much 😆

Chaosforthefly · 31-35, F

Yeah, I just want to spend time with my fur babies - they love me unconditionally and I don’t have to worry about rejection from them. I know I need to give humans a chance as well though.