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I Battle Self-hatred, Anxiety, And Depression

I'm crying in my bedroom. Hot steamy tears that burn my eyes and cause my hair to stick to my cheeks. I'm crying into the only thing that cuddles me, my pillow. Spooning a body pillow I'm sobbing into is now a daily occurrence.
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lovingdead · 31-35, M
What brought this on?
@lovingdead Okay, ready? I was molested with my first boyfriend now a few years later I got another and trusted him. He cheats on me and talks bad about me behind my back, saying he "can't deal with a mess" and etc. I found out and I can't believe I let myself open up again. I'm shy and awkward why would anyone truly love me?
Jammer6475 · 46-50, M
@GamerKitten what an ass
lovingdead · 31-35, M
You're shy and akward....and other people treated you shitty....none of that is negative on you.

Why wouldn't anyone love you? What are your biggest reasons why not....shy and akward doesn't count, that gives you something in common with 1 out of every 3 people
@lovingdead Depression PTSD, ADDD, Severe Anxiety, I'm ugly, I'm fat, I'm not talented, never even kissed someone
lovingdead · 31-35, M
What defines talent? Kissing people is not a make or break thing, and mental thing really isn't too bad....EVERYONE has baggage and things they have to deal with, but the difference is 60-70% of people don't see or acknowledge their own baggage.
@lovingdead My ugly face etc still doesn't help. Either way I'm worthless.
lovingdead · 31-35, M
@GamerKitten if you were worthless why would you listen to the negative view of a worthless person?....and at least 8 out of 10 people dislike aspects (including looks) of themselves
@lovingdead Everything about me sucks.
lovingdead · 31-35, M
@GamerKitten is there anybody you connect with or care about alot, look up to etc?
@lovingdead Not really.
lovingdead · 31-35, M
@GamerKitten no close family, friends, mentor