I Battle Depression

I fight depression everyday. All I do is watch TV, do the dishes, go to work and scroll on this site. I want to do so much more with my life yet I cant seem to get up and do it. Leaving the house to do grocery shopping or hang out with friends takes so much out of me. I can hardly focus on anything. I try so hard to be happy all the time. I want to get therapy and help to work through my issues but I am so terrified of being disappointed and knowing that I am beyond help. Beyond redemption. I'm also terrified that my therapist will judge me unfairly and give poor advice. So I'd be short money on top of feeling broken. Nothing seems to help

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YeuxNoirs · 31-35, F

I understand what you're saying completely as I have dealt with depression since my pre-teen years. I still relapse sometimes (for a short period of days) and it's a difficult situation. But, I know how to deal with it now. The important thing is to want to get better.

A good therapist might or might not help. Sometimes all we need is to talk to someone, a complete stranger, about what is bothering us, what makes us sad, and listening to their point of view. Other times it is us, ourselves, who hold us back and prevent us from moving forward and getting out of that hole.

You have to find out, maybe make a list, of the reasons why you are feeling the way you feel. Then make another list on what you can do to change that.

We all have our battles we need to fight. Just don't give up!