I Battle Depression

Have you ever been in a fog? A fog so thick it seems like you can never see the end? Have you ever been hurt? So hurt that you become consumed in it, and its all you ever know? Have you ever been scared? So scared that even taking one step feels like the ground is coming out from under you? I know a girl that has been hurt to the very core. Its normal for her you see, and the thought of happiness to her is just a state of mind. She sits on her bed for hours at a time just staring at the computer screen, waiting for her thoughts to catch up with her and flood her brain. She waits for her fingers to move so fast on the keyboard they almost break. This is her sanity; writing til theres nothing left in her mind. Nothing left to feel, and nothing left to say. She would rather write into the night than to shed another tear. But these days the tears flow like wine. The pain is so immense her heart shatters like glass. He took it from her and held it in his hands, and crushed it to dust. Now there's nothing. Just existence. It doesn't beat anymore, just rots and is slowly decaying in her chest cavity. This is where the numbness sets in. Her father always told her "Everywhere you go, no matter where you go, there you are." She cant escape herself anymore, and she is starting to realize that she can run but she cant hide. Do you have any idea what thats like? Do you truly know? Do you know what its like to have nowhere to go anymore? Her eyes look like fresh cut glass against the sun. Her face is so serene, like the feeling of hurt comforts her. It's never left her side, but at the same time she tries desperately to break free of the strong hold it has on her. This world is too big, and she is just too small. The world isn't ready for someone like her. I don't think it ever will be.