I Battle Depression

I feel like an animal. not human. something is tearing at my bones and ripping at my soul all the time. I can't sit still. ever. it's clawing at my skin. begging to be released. pain. deep inside my core. it's draining every bit of energy I ever had in me. it tires me. I get so exhausted. I just want to lay down but the static won't stop. my heart beats louder and louder in my chest trying desperately to get out. it doesn't belong there. why does she have a heart? she can't close her eyes because she can still see everything that happened to her that night. the night she had her innocence stolen from her. she can't stop it. can't stop these whirlwinds of pain and anguish circling her through the night. she can't escape it. so she chose to embrace it. become in love with her suffering and have that become her new normal. this is her. this is me.