I Battle Depression

Black-and-white. That's all she can say. Everything she looks that, everyone she comes into contact with, everywhere she goes, just black-and-white. Yes or no; is or isn't, good or evil. Never in between. That kind of thing doesn't exist. Gray is in a color in her mind. She can love or hate. Never at the same time. It's torture. It eats her up every day. Now try adding bipolar on top of it. Like adding icing on the cake. Mood swings….Mania in the morning….Anger by afternoon….Depression by nightfall…then it starts all over again in the next day. At least Abilify puts her to sleep at night. Unfortunately it makes her sleepy for a long time. She will Yawn all day and stare into space for minutes at a time. Her parents try to ignore it… They don't want to deal with it. They say it's all in her head. She can't shake the memories and nightmares. Her father says to let it go. She can't let it go… Everything is spins...Everything gets too loud during a manic episode…everyone has to leave her alone and be quiet, she gets very agitated and annoyed. There's nothing anyone can do but wait for the storm to pass… Unfortunately this is her life… Black-and-white.