I Battle Depression

The Shine... There is this thing i want nothing more in the world than to touch. It's something that is very important to me. Something that can keep me going, even for a minute. A light. Not a light bulb that lights up a room, i mean a light that lights up every corner, of every part of darkness that ever ate me up inside. A light that can scare away my demons and turn them into angels. A light that can tear away the shame and guilt that consumes me. It destroys me and makes me hate myself. I try so hard to be what people want me to be but the demons fight me. I try to be normal but i can't help that i have depression. I have had it for as long as i can remember. It's terrible. The worst part is it only seems to be getting worse. I want the warm light to embrace me so much. I want the warm light to be like a warm blanket that surrounds and holds me so tight its like its choking me. Even if the light is holding me as tight as it can, i feel like it will never be enough.