I Am Bipolar and Clinically Depressed

I get mixed episodes a lot and my doctor told me that I have mixed bipolar and I was wondering what do your mixed episodes feel like? mine feel like extreme agitation like I can't be touched or I will go insane and like there is something under my skin. there's things that need to be cleaned but I don't have the energy to do them but at the same time I am restless. every little thing bothers me. every sound, every little thing. I hate everything. I cry out of frustration and its just exhausting. how is this like for you?