I Struggle With Depression and Anxiety

I never thought I could destroy my life so completely. I grew up thinking I'd be someone good, someone honorable... But I messed up and now I live a life of guilt, shame and disgrace. I'm sorry... I guess it doesn't matter, I don't really know why I post stuff like this, I guess I just want someone to know that I'm really sorry, the kind of sorry that I can feel in my heart. Times like this make me regret walking away from vodka, God I miss it.