I Fight Depression and Loneliness Everyday

"And I find it kinda funny,
I find it kinda sad.
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I ever had.
I find it hard to tell you,
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it's a very, very mad world, mad world"
Right now this chorus is all that is in my head, like it's mocking me... thoughts of death are never far away. Only the knowledge that I am needed still keeps me here.