I Battle Self-hatred, Anxiety, And Depression

This is what a battle daily. Seems like everyone around me is getting married and living their lives. I miss living. I miss growing and loving. When I love, I love hard and 100%. I cherish and respect my mate and I am at his beck and call. I guess accepting that I had my chance is the hardest thing that I have ever done. Man this sucks.

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Highonheels · 51-55, M

I know how you feel chocolate I was with my wife for almost twenty years now we dated for about 4 years and married for almost 16 years now but we have been separated for the last three years and I go through bouts of depression and anxiety because i m confused about what she really wants she says she wants a divorce but for the last three years she hasn't got it,we are trying to be friends well I'm trying anyway I don't feel like she really is but it is what it is I guess and I've got to find a way to deal with it all I can do is try to find ways to keep my mind off of it and try to move on and do my best to make things right no matter what. Take care of yourself sweetheart and don't be so hard on yourself things will change but you must learn to live yourself before you can expect anyone else to love you.