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I Am Depressed

Today my childhood dream was crushed. Today I broke again. My heart was shattered. None of the methods I use to suppress my depression or anxiety issues worked. The thoughts rushed to my head all at once. I felt sick. I didn’t want to live, still don’t. I feel like a failure. I feel I have no purpose. I feel alone. I feel dead. I feel like dying. The suicidal thoughts are back stronger than ever. I’m 3 years clean and I held a razor to my skin again. Just the desire to watch the blood leave my body. I didn’t do it, but I’m afraid of how close I am again. One more thing to trigger me and I might start. I’m afraid. I’m giving in, I’m telling someone in my family because I have decided I need help. If I do t get help, I don’t know how much longer I’ll make it.
Classy · 22-25, FVIP
I'm so happy you have decided to tell a family member, the hardest thing to do is to ask for help. You are not a failure, you may feel like one but you are not and your family does not see you that way. I lost my brother to suicide so I am happy you are asking for help and trying to keep living life, your family would be devastated to lose you.
17smitha · 26-30, M
@Classy I’m sorry about your brother. If I’d have had the opportunity to know him, I’d have sat him down and talked so he knew he wasn’t alone in this feeling. I’m sorry!
Goralski · 51-55, M
D more you know

 
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