I Battle Depression

Just quite recently, suicidal thoughts have been bothering me more often. It just comes into my mind randomly. My thoughts are like: what am I gonna do to kill myself? Will I overdose, slit my wrist, shoot myself, or jump over the bridge? It's ridiculous, I know. But it just really comes up my mind randomly.

I don't tell this to anyone I know cuz I don't think they will understand. They'll just think I'm overdramatic and will tell me to just get over it. Well, if I could, I already have.

I'm not sure what I need right now. I just posted this so I can let some thoughts off of my mind.

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Neiromatheous · 31-35, M

Similar thoughts come to my mind as well, for me I came to realize it isn't depression but a lot of stress. Killing myself is easier than dealing with it. For you, I cannot say but talking about it can help you better understand it.

LittleLamp · 26-30, F

@Neiromatheous hmm I think stress is not the reason for these thoughts. I feel like I have no purpose and I won't ever do good in life. And like there's no future for me and my life has no point at all so might as well end it now.

Neiromatheous · 31-35, M

@LittleLamp Your purpose is whatever you desire it to be, despite what the religions of the world says to us. We aren't born with some master design that will dictate our lives to us and give us purpose. We have to create our own purpose out of what we are passionate about. It is up to you to decide what that will be and no matter what you decide it will not be pointless, as long as it means something to you.