I Have Bipolar

I have Bipolar disorder, Anxiety, and ADHD and it is a daily struggle. The manic episodes make me feel invincible and I am very impulsive. My thoughts race and I make terrible choices. When you combine that with the symptoms related to Anxiety and ADHD it only adds fuel to the fire. Then when I enter a depressed episode the lows are that much lower. It is a daily struggle for me. I want to know that people understand and can help; however I feel so alone. I want to live a normal life but I can't seem to get it right. People don't seem to understand how of a struggle having a mental illness is. Sometimes I don't even understand myself. I have the tendency to withdraw and distance myself from the ones I love and care about. I need to know that people care but sometimes I don't even care about myself. I lash out at people who are only trying to help and I feel so bad about doing that. I screw up most things that I have going for me and it makes my issues that much worse. I want to be helped but no one seems to have the patience or understanding to do so. I just want to be understood.