I don't think I should be marrying soon...

I can't even tell my family about my bipolar disorder 2, how could I tell someone I could potentially break up with?

No.

This is a big no.

Plus, I have so many issues that resurface whenever I'm neutral or worse depressed.

I went to therapy when I was hypomanic (before the diagnosis) to solve them, but the therapist after 05 sessions said you need no more, you're good to go with the conclusion that I should listen to my body more in order not to burnout. And she was satisfied about how I dealt with the other issues.

So, if my insecurities and issues are soothed and well dealt with and empathized with when I'm hypomaniac, and only resurface when I'm depressed or neutral... how am I supposed to live with someone and have kids with them? How will I raise them? How can I have me as a mother? 💔

God, I can't even think about it...
Actually, I'm overthinking about it. I pray things will be alright.

ThePatientAnarchist · 61-69

Many people struggle with different kinds of mental illness, and there is so much more openness about this than there used to be, and more support available.
I think if you want to find a spouse you should be hopeful, and ready to be honest with anyone you are potentially getting close to. Tell them about your history and how your illness affects you. They may not be afraid at all.