@Jayciedubb sure! Thank you for your service!🫡

@Guardian it's always a nice feeling when people acknowledge my service like that. ..but then I feel like a fraud. I didn't join out of patriotism. I joined because I flunked out of high school thinking I'd be a longshoreman like my dad or an iron worker like my uncle. Either of those were actually good paying jobs. ..union jobs with great pay and great benefits.

Unfortunately, the state took over the hiring practices of ILWU, due to the severe amount of nepotism and favoritism🙄😬, and the recession Reagan had us in put all the building trades in hiring freeze mode.

I didn't become a patriot until well after my indoctrination. 🫡

@V00doo thank you so much for replying and participating the way I was hoping everybody was going to participate either for or against. I didn't think civil was going to be too difficult on this one but apparently... for some people... I probably embarrassed myself on a couple of my replies but I really don't care I'm not sorry for the things I said to some people who needed to hear them. Anyway thanks for your idea I've never heard of such a thing. But it makes sense that there might be. However, the goal is that I want to learn how to do it myself. It's something I've been someone working on since I took over at Sole caretaker when my wife fell I'll.

He tolerates me running my fingers through his hair as long as i stay away from the shunt. I think theres an approach to success, but i know for sure its a narrow one with cliffs on both sides. And if anyone goes over the cliff, they will wreck it for any further attempts for a long time. I know that was a week analogy but I hope it makes sense. I think one of the other factors is I got catch him when he's sleepy. Also, everybody tries to use Clippers on him. I don't think that's the right tool, considering that's what's what the brain surgeons used on him and even though they were ultimately relieving paying for him I think it might remind him of painful times either way. I don't know if any of the stuff is right but I want to work it all into my advantage just in case it is. One of the reasons I thought about including marijuana is that I recall how good it feels to have my scalp lightly scratched when I'm stoned. And how I'm like I said, Mr j, not Sergeant j. I'm way more mellow. I think I decided that it's going to happen. I think it's for the better and I think he's going to enjoy it. I'm not planning on getting him baked out of his mind. I'm experimenting with a very light dose for myself and when I find it I plan on giving him maybe a quarter of that since he's about half my weight and I only want to take the slightest bit of an edge off for him I can always add more if it's not enough but I can never take back a bad trip LOL

Thanks again for your kind comment. I hope you can ignore any juvenile or overstated replies I may have replied to some other people in this post. But if not , I at least hope you are entertained.. and I don't mean that in a snarky way

@Jayciedubb thanks for you poignant txt.
Best wishes in sorry about your wife …

@DDaverde thank you sir same to you and thank you for your patience. One of my coping mechanisms is come here and I get real wordy in the comment sections spending my time thinking about anything other than what's looming

@SomeMichGuy thanks for sharing your opinion and your concerns. Where do they come from? Crystal ball? Obviously you've done no research on the matter.

In life there are worriors and there are warriors. I already know which side you fall on from our previous encounter. My son is the son of a warrior. We're going to take that route.

I really do appreciate the fact that you took the time to participate. Now I'm encouraging you to disengage. Dont waste anymore of your time on this post. The decision has already been made..

I have a feeling you won't be able to resist. You're one of those last word guys. So if you must reply, bring the data to support your opinion.

I have studied on the matter quite a bit and I know there are downsides. Or at least possible downsides. My 24 years of research on this matter tell me that the benefits are way more beneficial in the possible cons. Even if they are completely true. If you bring them. I will explain to you why they are either minimal, or moot.

I know your opinion of me isn't very high, but I do respect you as a man and as an American that's why I'm going to give you an example of what I'm talking about here.

One of the possible downsides of this is that it could negatively affect his appetite. That's a non issue because my son has no desire to eat ever. I feed him through a g tube and he has no choice but to take it and absorb it.

Another is that it may make him sleepy. I hope it does. Do you know anything about the sleeping patterns of autistic people? Tuesday morning he slept for about 5 hours. He's been up ever since. And that's common

Don't be so sure my wife is going to love him either way. You should hear them right now. She got up to take a piss and left her door open. Jake scooted in and now they're screaming at each other. It's 1:00 a.m. here. I don't remember the last time I slept. I think I laid down at least for 2 hours this afternoon.🤔 yes. I did. Her sister-in-law took her to her appointments today so I tried to sneak in a nap, but Commander demander had other plans for us. We had to count down alternately from 6 to blast off then I had to give the report of the Rockets. We did that over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over then we played a little, I saw a blue one. I saw a red one. I saw a blue one. I saw a white one. I saw a blue one. I saw a yellow one. I saw a blue one. I saw a black one. I saw a blue one. I saw an orange one. I saw a blue one. I think I saw the same one. Did yours have orange pinstripes? I saw a blue one I saw a green one I saw a blue one. Me too. I saw a blue one. I think we're looking at the same one. I saw a blue one. Where? I saw a blue one. Okay. Okay. Okay. Okay. Okay. Good night. Good night jake, I love you. Good night. Good night jake, I love you. Call Lola. I she's busy. Call lola. I can't she's busy. Where's mom? She's at her appointment. Go get mom. She's at her appointment. Vincent. He's not here. Go to school? You graduated. Jake graduated. Yes you did. You're so smart. Go to school? You graduated. Remember? Jake graduated. Yes. Jake graduated because he's so smart. Call Lola? I can't. She's busy. Vincent. You know he's not here right now. He moved out. Poor Wally. Oh don't worry about wally. Wally's fine. Poor Wally. I'm telling you Wally is fine. Poor Wally yeah, poor Wally. We go elevator. Yes in 2 weeks. 2 weeks. Yes 2 weeks. 2 weeks. Yes 2 weeks. Good night. Good night Jake I love you. Good night. Good night Jake I love you. I love you. I love you too jake. Jake graduated. Yesterday graduated because he's so smart. I'm so proud of you jake. You're so smart. No riley. That's right. No riley. He's not allowed. No riley. Exactly. School monday. No you graduated. Jake graduated. Yes Jake You graduated. Because you're so smart Jake graduated. Yesterday cuz you're so smart. No Riley. That's right. No riley. He's not allowed

Riley is why there's no school [adult daycare for special adults] riley had been mistreating Jake probably since day one. I walked in on it when i arrived earlier than usual, Thanksgiving weekend 2024. There were 3 other adults of varying abilities all crammed into a smaller room. Maybe a projector room. Riley had Jake's wheelchair blocked into the far corner of the room with his (rileys) wheelchair. Jakes pant legs were hiked up past his knees , his legs were all red and Riley wasnt letting jake push his pantlegs back down. The other 2 men looked guilty as shit, avoiding eye contact with me. I got behind jakes wheelchair and unlocked the brakes, and started pushing him towards the door. Riley tried to stop me by blocking my way with his arm and started to, get this, stand up. Yes. Riley can walk. Hes in his mid 20s with athletic build., probably about an inch or so taller than me. I'm 6'1. And his dad is bigger than him and never very talkative. He seems like a black racist to me or maybe he thinks his tired old yet very clean and shiny Mercedes gives him some sort of privilege.


Here I Go Again huh. God damn it. Anyway, I lean forward, shove Riley back down in his chair and storm out of the little room, demanding to see the director. They knew something was up because one of the other helpers, the one who changes and treats Jake tried to come and answer and explain why his parents were up so high. She said she forgot to pull them down after she changed him. Think about that for a second. I'm not being condescending. Seriously, think about that. The funny thing is, his brother and I had just had a conversation about how it seems like the cuff of your jacket would run the whole night of your arm when you put your jacket on. It does to me anyway and apparently it does to that help her because there's no reason his cuff should be up to his fucking knees after changing him. By then the director had showed up and she knew that was absurd and cut me off when I was about to explain why it absurd telling me, no Jake pulls his pants up like that all the time. I guess you overlooked the fact that I I've been living with him and caring for him for the past 23 and a half years at that point and I had never seen it happen at home. In fact, I know it's the other way around. His pant legs are up, he pulls them down, religiously. I mean, habitually. Don't focus on that religiously word too much. Come on stay with me. LOL I'm just kidding. I know how you are about religion. Lol😁

Anyway, so the caretaker just lied to me. The director just told me a whole different lie. And continues to ramble, trying to put me at ease, telling me, don't worry. He's safe. There's nothing going on around here. We have cameras everywhere. I said okay then show me some footage of him pulling his pants up or maybe show me how you guys change his diaper cuz I do it totally different. When I do it, his cuffs never climb past his ankles.

She said that I was going to take some time and they were trying to get out of there for there Thanksgiving weekend. And I really had to get out of there by then because I was starting to boil and I didn't want to make a scene or hurt anybody but I really wanted to hurt Riley and the old man who was probably supposed to be guarding the door when I walked in

I still have no idea what they're doing to him I just know the first step in there crisis control procedure is to lie.. step 2, deny. Step 3, don't reply. Step 4. Goodbye..

Speaking of goodbye, it's long overdue. I need to sleep and they're back at it again with the fucking screaming and yelling