I’ve felt with abuse growing up on the autism spectrum.

Ever since I was a child, some of my cousins should taunt me, bully me, and you mock me when I have sensory issues. When I have a meltdown when things get overwhelming, they would yell at me, mock me and push me to the ground. They called me “weak” and “pathetic” because I have no backbone and I’m a pushover. They would purposely push me around and push my boundaries to see if I would fight back but the would be like, “Ugh! You’re weak! When are you going to stand up for yourself?”
I got beaten up, pushed around, they grabbed my hair, scratched me, screamed at me and even spit at me. They would get into my face and also jump towards me. They know I’m autistic and they get jealous of the extra attention I needed because I’m “special needs” they would made my life a living hell. They would take me down and beat me up so bad. My siblings would tell me to not let those “little shrimp” do that to me. I’m tall so I should intimidate them. Even one of my aunts and uncles treated me unfairly too and disrespected me so much. Now as an adult they scream and cuss at me when I don’t help. They don’t do it to the others. Even my own family made fun of me sometimes. They said they’re joking and I need to stop being so sensitive. I got picked on the most and some people laughed at me because I don’t react the same was as other kids who doesn’t have autism. I’m the black sheep of the family. Even as a young adult, my cousin still give me a hard time but less than when we were kids. Even some older kids though I couldn’t do anything for myself so she would treat me like a baby but the other kids my age like our age. I would try but she kept telling me to be quiet and I don’t understand properly.