I don't know what to do...I cant keep living like this.

My brain, my mental illness will not let me live in peace.

I cannot keep living like this...but I also don't want to hurt my family.

I'm trying religion...I'm praying to Jesus but idk

I'm starting to think my family would be better off without me. Heck even this world would be better off if I was gone.

My family would hurt for a while but they would get over it eventually. They would go on to live happier lives than the one they current live with me as a burden.

If only I weren't so scared.