I feel like I'm going crazy

I told a female friend that I thought I was ugly, and she was (and still is) insistent that I am in fact good looking. I asked a couple of other female friends if that was true and they said yes. Apparently I also have beautiful eyes. It just really confuses me because I've kind of just assumed my ugliness due to getting rejected so much. I have a lot to think about... like wtf is wrong with me then?! XD

Sorry, I know there's no reason for anyone to want to read this. A heavily ingrained aspect of how I see myself being challenged is throwing me off.