littlepuppywantanewlife · 31-35, M
Stop it immediately. If you need friends to talk about it I am here.
xZer0x · 18-21
@littlepuppywantanewlife Thanks but I think I'm a bit beyond talking. I'm honestly doing it again. I'm drinking at this moment at a friends party and im ahead. I know this drinking isn't for fun, im just doing it to get away and feel something I'm over it but i can't stop. I know I should but if I do I don't feel alive or anything. I feel nothing. There's something wrong with me. But at the same time I don't care, I just idk.
Queendragonfly · 31-35, F
Are you home all day long? Maybe you need to find a job.
xZer0x · 18-21
@Queendragonfly I have a job, I have shelter and food, I have everything I need in order to survive. I'm just me. I'm not sure
Queendragonfly · 31-35, F
xZer0x · 18-21
@Queendragonfly none, but the way I think. I want to live so differently. I want to LIVE. I don't want to work, deal with people I want roam freely without worry of money, politics, society. I can't because that's not how life works.
Most people just say just go for it but means hard work and I'm sure I'm capable of it but I also just feel stuck. My mind restrains me for simply even thinking for myself. I make it so hard for myself to live.
I'm horrible at explaining it to be honest so it probably doesn't make sense. I'm not very good at expressing things, emotions, my words.
Most people just say just go for it but means hard work and I'm sure I'm capable of it but I also just feel stuck. My mind restrains me for simply even thinking for myself. I make it so hard for myself to live.
I'm horrible at explaining it to be honest so it probably doesn't make sense. I'm not very good at expressing things, emotions, my words.