Please hang in there. I know there are better days to come. We all go through bad times and loved ones can get frustrated with us. I'm sure you don't always mess up.

The fact that your mother got really upset and angry might be more "her stuff" than "your stuff."

Seriously, unless you were goading her or trolling her or something, you are not responsible for her emotions. She is responsible for her emotions. Maybe you do sometimes mess up, but maybe she messes up too.

Try to stay positive. :)