I’m becoming dependent upon alcohol 😔
As if I didn’t already have enough issues… lately, I have only been able to feel happy if I drink alcohol. When I don’t, I’m sad. Alcohol makes me feel free
22-25, F
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Lhayezee · 26-30, F
I know the feeling. And it can pass, absolutely. The way for alcohol to be again just a nice thing to enjoy sometimes and not the crutch it was for me for a bit and seems like maybe it is for you as well I'm sure is different for everyone so do ignore me lol.
For me I think I felt lonely (which seemed ridiculous because I spent lots of time with friends still), and for me the way out was when I started going for more walks in nature, in the countryside or just city parks. A wild animal's never going to be a 'friend' ofc but I got to know different species' personalities and encountering different birds etc randomly and watching them was something that just connected for me, helped me feel more alive and happy in the way I thought for a while alcohol did.
Like I say, what did it for me doesn't mean it has any interest for you, but I guess the point is that we all can get stuck in ruts and trying a new thing for a while can often help.
And yeah now Iv'e written all that it probably looks patronising as I don't even know what if any advice or comments you were after, but I've written it now so just saying - some of us have been there and we can find ways out too :) xxx
For me I think I felt lonely (which seemed ridiculous because I spent lots of time with friends still), and for me the way out was when I started going for more walks in nature, in the countryside or just city parks. A wild animal's never going to be a 'friend' ofc but I got to know different species' personalities and encountering different birds etc randomly and watching them was something that just connected for me, helped me feel more alive and happy in the way I thought for a while alcohol did.
Like I say, what did it for me doesn't mean it has any interest for you, but I guess the point is that we all can get stuck in ruts and trying a new thing for a while can often help.
And yeah now Iv'e written all that it probably looks patronising as I don't even know what if any advice or comments you were after, but I've written it now so just saying - some of us have been there and we can find ways out too :) xxx
StarletPea · 22-25, F
@Lhayezee Thanks so much for this. I love nature/animals and I’ve always thought that the only way I could truly feel alive is if I put myself out there and do the exact same thing you did. I feel like I’ll get to know myself better that way, too. Maybe I will try that soon. 🙂
Lhayezee · 26-30, F
@StarletPea really do it (before the weather gets awful, assuming you're in the northern hemisphere lol). Honestly just spending time watching and experiencing the natural world helped me feel better more than anything and it's still where I go to recharge a bit or escape when things get a bit much :)
Justmeraeagain · 56-60, F
MrMonotone · 31-35, M
Alcohol is a small bandage on a massive wound...it makes brief windows feel bearable but doesn't solve anything...I know from experience...it numbs the outside and is such an easy quick fix...mine is mostly for my relentless anxiety...but it doesnt make anything better long term
StarletPea · 22-25, F
@MrMonotone That’s very true. I use it to help with my anxiety but the effects go away quickly.. and I know this dependence will surely lead to abuse :/
MrMonotone · 31-35, M
@StarletPea it definitely will...best advice I can give is to find someone you can comfortably vent to just to get all that shit off your plate and feel a little lighter
TessDun · 36-40, F
Being dependent and addicted to it is not good. You will develop tolerance and you need to drink more to feel its effects. You may become a high functioning alcoholic but it will be a big concern if you work on a job that would require you to analyze, be attentive to details or when you are studying
TheGoodGuy · M
checkoutanytime · M
AllAboutLaffs · 70-79, M
ArtieKat · M
I reached a stage where I was having a tot of whisky in my morning coffee before going off to work. It was quite a few years before I broke the habit of drinking to excess - in my case it was falling in love which was the catalyst. As @Lhayezee said, we're all different so the solutions are going to be different
TheLordOfHell · 41-45
