Fear of the Dark
I've recently developed a fear of the dark. I used to enjoy it, finding it both exciting and calming. I insisted on complete darkness to sleep, even though my windowless room. However, over the past few weeks, my relationship with darkness has changed. When I'm alone in the dark with silence enveloping me, it overwhelms me with sadness. Anxious thoughts and school-related stress flood my mind, making it impossible to focus on anything else. Thoughts like 'I'm not good enough' and 'I can't handle this' continuously plague me.
To cope with this newfound fear and sadness, I've started leaving my bedroom door open at night. Unfortunately, this adjustment has disrupted my sleep schedule. I attempt to go to bed at 10 pm but often find myself unable to fall asleep until 3 am. This leaves me with only 2 to 3 hours of sleep each night, which is challenging to manage, especially with school starting at 7 am. I'm really struggling with this situation, and I can't help but despise it.
To cope with this newfound fear and sadness, I've started leaving my bedroom door open at night. Unfortunately, this adjustment has disrupted my sleep schedule. I attempt to go to bed at 10 pm but often find myself unable to fall asleep until 3 am. This leaves me with only 2 to 3 hours of sleep each night, which is challenging to manage, especially with school starting at 7 am. I'm really struggling with this situation, and I can't help but despise it.