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in10RjFox oh yes thank you.
I totally understand what you mean .
Where relationships are concerned the future for me feels as though it's considerably more about free will.
& less about meeting the expectations of others. Which after hmm 50 yrs can feel slightly strange.
It wasn't that I was ever someone who wore two faces. Its just that , looking back on my past relationship experiences.
I can easily see my choices had pleased me of course.
But equally as much, were acceptable to my family and friends.
Not forgetting peer group & socialtal constraints.
These days wether by luck or design I am seeing that my choices, in how relate are 100% just about me .
While I don't feel as though I am doing anything wrong. It feels very different I must admit that .But also very very authentic.
I believe tha when you get to my time of life where you have seen and understand, that nothing is necessarily promised . Living authentically, feels like a tonic 🙂