The Dam Finally Broke……

I cried and cried all day yesterday, trying to get rid of my outward and internal pain. I was recently diagnosed with Boderline Personaliity Disorder. I was first diagnosed with Bipolar, but, BPD mimics bipolar. Very tough to diagnose.

All my life I was told it was a weakness to cry. I would always try and hide it because I was so ashamed. I haven’t really cried in a very long time until yesterday! It felt like all my emotions were pouring out on the floor. It hurt, but, I let the tears flow. I’m very drained at this point. I let go of a lot yesterday. At least I think I did. Who knows…..it’s likely to build again! But, I’ve got to try and let go more often.

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OogieBoogie · F

You do !
Crying is lust as necessary as laughing.

And it will get better. It must have hurt so much to feel it after so long .

Sometimes i cry , and its not about anything specific.....its just a buikd up inside. And i dont care to know what its about , its the crying that is important.

Sometimes you just need to let out tjat energy build up .
💜

SageWanderer · 70-79, M

@OogieBoogie I’m glad to have read through responses before posting. Just as you release happiness and joy with laughter; pain and hurt get released through tears. I don’t understand why that’s not understood.

OogieBoogie · F

@SageWanderer yeah, i dont know why people think its bad either.
Its kind of cruicial that we allow ourselves to feel.

Ive read somwwhere there is a process to grief , ( denial, anger, bargaining , sorrow and acceptance),and thar if you dont go through each stage it makes it hard to get over. Or that you can get stuck on denial , or anger as they feel easier.
Im not sure how true it is, but i do know sorrow is very painful .

And yes , as painful as it is .....why dont we learn its ok to release it?
To me, its been an essential process.