I need to get up for work in a hour and I can’t sleep bc my anxiety is through the roof

I don’t know why. My heart is racing, I’m trying to quiet my mind, but when I try my thoughts are all over the place. I’m panicking for some reason, I’m forgetting something or someone needs something or I’m letting someone down idk.. I suck, I know I do. I need to do better and be better. I don’t know wtf is wrong with me. I just want peace. I spent my life being a quiet little thing in the corner nobody noticed, I valued the silence.. but now it never stops, everyone always needs something, but why from me? There is always someone better, smarter, why not go to them? I’m so imperfect, boring, the furthest thing from beautiful, yet everyone keeps coming back to me more and more. At work, at home, everywhere now. I never set out to lead, but everyone keeps following me. It terrifies me that so many people think I’m their best chance for guidance, for help.. how sad is that? I’m always honest about my shortcomings, I don’t hide them, so why do people keep thinking I’m more than I am??? I miss the days when people just accepted they were better and didn’t pay any mind to me. I’m tired.. I’m sorry if you wasted any time reading this. I’m logging off now to try to sleep.. I just needed to say things I can’t say out loud.

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Graylight · 51-55, F

Take a deep breathe. It's cleansing and focuses us. When anxiety is too much is the little hours, I find it's better to simply get up and put my relentless mind to work on even menial tasks. Don't worry about sleep patterns too much; when you're tired enough, you will sleep and if it's a larger problem there are non-addictive, mild sleep agents available by scrip.

Do yourselves and research the following term: Setting healthy boundaries. I think you might find gaining some skills will help you a lot.

If we don't draw lines in our lives to protect our mental health, our peace and out own time, we can be assured no one else will draw them for us. [i]We [/i]teach others how to treat us. Be true to yourself and then show others in your life how to best respect that.

Lilliesandlight · 41-45, F

People see qualities in you that you don't see in yourself. I can relate to some of what you wrote in your post. I hope you have a peaceful night soon

Namesaresohard · 36-40, M

@Lilliesandlight Thank you. Normally I can focus and move past feelings like this, but lately it’s become really hard to see past the self doubt

InHeaven · F

Drink strong valerian tea. It will knock you out

Namesaresohard · 36-40, M

@InHeaven I do love tea, I will need to try that tonight. I’ll need to make a point to remember, for some reason I’ve been getting confused lately when the sun goes down

InHeaven · F

But right before bed@Namesaresohard not in the morning or before driving. It knocked me out...next morning I forgot where i was when i woke up. It has to be strong brew tho. Weak or light tea will do nothing

Namesaresohard · 36-40, M

@InHeaven I think I’ll pick some up on my way home later, thank for the advice! 🙂

PhoenixPhail · M

That's such a bad feeling.
I hope you find the peace you need to get some restful sleep.

Namesaresohard · 36-40, M

@PhoenixPhail thank you!

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