I like myself but feel like others don't

Or rather, that I don't come across very well, especially early on, and people get put off.

And that's without the feeling that people who do get to know me like me for a time then just seem to lose interest after a while.

I only seem to be neurodivergent enough to be weird, and neurotypical enough to grasp social cues, but not either enough to have it be somehow endearing.