Can you imagine your partner having PTSD and fibromyalgia, but doing their best to work through it and get better...

They're getting help from docs, therapists and physical therapy. They're struggling yet still trying to be supportive of your petty work complaints and mood swings....

And then they have a really bad day in the healing process, and instead of being supportive, you make it all about you and start an argument. You gaslight them and make them feel like they're being a jerk, because you didn't like how they felt. Even though you're aware they're going through a lot personally, you feel like they're attacking you. You want to be praised for being their supporter, when you do absolutely nothing to be supportive and refuse to get help for yourself when you verbally abuse this person you claim you love.

You're angry at them when they tell you they're afraid to tell you how they feel because your reactions are always defensive. You tell them they are the problem instead of ever wondering why they're afraid of you. Instead you tell them how they feel, you don't ask, you tell them, how they feel...

Never understanding or being able to fathom that the way you treat them is also traumatizing and YOU are the piece of shit in the equation. Because you will insist they open up to you, then rip their insides apart when they share. Yet you refuse to believe that their fear of you, has anything to do with you.