Blessings to you. 🌹
First of all, ...You are not dumb nor an idiot. Quite the opposite.
And no doubt about it that it's weird how we treat each other.

It's your personal feelings and you're entitled to have those. I hope no one starts making rude comments based on this but I am aware there'll likely always be that one. I've experienced this myself and keep most of my personal reflections to myself instead on the boards.

I feel the same as you do. Many of the popular users can say what they want about others and no one cares. You’re ghosted and ridiculed just for being kind on here. The members might as well befriend dead people so they won’t have a problem with them. I try to enjoy this place but it’s not really working. All the cruelty, ghosting and harassment from others has created a feeling of numbness in me. I just can’t trust anyone, anymore. I do wish you well and understand how you feel.

You do what's right for you... what's best for you.
Internet isn't all it's cracked up to be.
People here may or may not care, but as far as I can tell... it's not going beyond internet and most just give their opinions and move on to the next topic/post.
I once thought true friends were obtainable on internet and I was right. lol But they are not all over the place... I seem to find very few compared to years ago. I miss those friends... most have died.

Maybe you need to set a plan for daily life off internet? Try finding ways to heal in your life and just maybe you will find some who care... enroll in some kind of program that will benefit you and you will meet others?
It's hard and I offer what I think might help since I am kind of at the same point right now.

I'm sorry

I'm really sorry you feel so upset by being here. This should be a place that you can release all of that and not care about who judges you for it because it is just a website where you can be anonymous.

Try not to be so involved or care what others think of you xx

I am so sorry you have been treated badly. I understand what you mean. There are people here that have no issue being terrible to others here.

They will gang up in groups to do it. O am conflicted about staying. You have to do what’s right for you. I hope you and your son will be okay 💖.