I don鈥檛 want to be here anymore.
I took a few days off and I realize this place is just toxic for me.
Some people here have really treated me like shit. Treated me ways I would never treat anyone even if I didn鈥檛 like them. I鈥檓 not likeable as an internet person and this just doesn鈥檛 feel real. It鈥檚 as if this place brings out the worst in me yet I鈥檓 addicted to feeling like I have others to talk to.
On EP you could laugh and share and it was silly and fun. On here, every post you make someone or multiple people lash out on you and it just feels really weird to harass people on the internet. Even kindness feels cowardly because you can just walk away, ignore and block when things get tough.
There鈥檚 some awesome people on here, but let鈥檚 face it, these types of connections are flimsy.
Soooo many people I trusted through the years that blocked or turned on me when I could of used a drop of understanding.
It鈥檚 just too easy to be a jerk on here. Most of the people that are openly jerks on here aren鈥檛 even believable or witty about it. Just cruel. Then those of us that are generally here for laughs get sucked into the misery for caring.
I鈥檓 dumb actually when it comes to emotions. I don鈥檛 know why I think people care. I could write something kind to all of their expressions and they simply ignore mine.
I鈥檓 an idiot for being here when it makes me feel so bad.
Mostly I think I鈥檝e been clinging to how it was on EP. The users here that still make you laugh and think bring me back. But maybe it鈥檚 time to let it all go. Because every time I log on these days, I feel worse. It鈥檚 not just here, it鈥檚 humanity in general.
I鈥檓 just wasting more time, wasting more words and spending energy on thoughts that mean absolutely nothing to no one.
I write this and can鈥檛 stop imagining the rude comments I鈥檓 going to get for stating my feelings. It鈥檚 weird. It鈥檚 super weird how we treat each other.
Some people here have really treated me like shit. Treated me ways I would never treat anyone even if I didn鈥檛 like them. I鈥檓 not likeable as an internet person and this just doesn鈥檛 feel real. It鈥檚 as if this place brings out the worst in me yet I鈥檓 addicted to feeling like I have others to talk to.
On EP you could laugh and share and it was silly and fun. On here, every post you make someone or multiple people lash out on you and it just feels really weird to harass people on the internet. Even kindness feels cowardly because you can just walk away, ignore and block when things get tough.
There鈥檚 some awesome people on here, but let鈥檚 face it, these types of connections are flimsy.
Soooo many people I trusted through the years that blocked or turned on me when I could of used a drop of understanding.
It鈥檚 just too easy to be a jerk on here. Most of the people that are openly jerks on here aren鈥檛 even believable or witty about it. Just cruel. Then those of us that are generally here for laughs get sucked into the misery for caring.
I鈥檓 dumb actually when it comes to emotions. I don鈥檛 know why I think people care. I could write something kind to all of their expressions and they simply ignore mine.
I鈥檓 an idiot for being here when it makes me feel so bad.
Mostly I think I鈥檝e been clinging to how it was on EP. The users here that still make you laugh and think bring me back. But maybe it鈥檚 time to let it all go. Because every time I log on these days, I feel worse. It鈥檚 not just here, it鈥檚 humanity in general.
I鈥檓 just wasting more time, wasting more words and spending energy on thoughts that mean absolutely nothing to no one.
I write this and can鈥檛 stop imagining the rude comments I鈥檓 going to get for stating my feelings. It鈥檚 weird. It鈥檚 super weird how we treat each other.
