I don’t want to be here anymore.
I took a few days off and I realize this place is just toxic for me.
Some people here have really treated me like shit. Treated me ways I would never treat anyone even if I didn’t like them. I’m not likeable as an internet person and this just doesn’t feel real. It’s as if this place brings out the worst in me yet I’m addicted to feeling like I have others to talk to.
On EP you could laugh and share and it was silly and fun. On here, every post you make someone or multiple people lash out on you and it just feels really weird to harass people on the internet. Even kindness feels cowardly because you can just walk away, ignore and block when things get tough.
There’s some awesome people on here, but let’s face it, these types of connections are flimsy.
Soooo many people I trusted through the years that blocked or turned on me when I could of used a drop of understanding.
It’s just too easy to be a jerk on here. Most of the people that are openly jerks on here aren’t even believable or witty about it. Just cruel. Then those of us that are generally here for laughs get sucked into the misery for caring.
I’m dumb actually when it comes to emotions. I don’t know why I think people care. I could write something kind to all of their expressions and they simply ignore mine.
I’m an idiot for being here when it makes me feel so bad.
Mostly I think I’ve been clinging to how it was on EP. The users here that still make you laugh and think bring me back. But maybe it’s time to let it all go. Because every time I log on these days, I feel worse. It’s not just here, it’s humanity in general.
I’m just wasting more time, wasting more words and spending energy on thoughts that mean absolutely nothing to no one.
I write this and can’t stop imagining the rude comments I’m going to get for stating my feelings. It’s weird. It’s super weird how we treat each other.
Some people here have really treated me like shit. Treated me ways I would never treat anyone even if I didn’t like them. I’m not likeable as an internet person and this just doesn’t feel real. It’s as if this place brings out the worst in me yet I’m addicted to feeling like I have others to talk to.
On EP you could laugh and share and it was silly and fun. On here, every post you make someone or multiple people lash out on you and it just feels really weird to harass people on the internet. Even kindness feels cowardly because you can just walk away, ignore and block when things get tough.
There’s some awesome people on here, but let’s face it, these types of connections are flimsy.
Soooo many people I trusted through the years that blocked or turned on me when I could of used a drop of understanding.
It’s just too easy to be a jerk on here. Most of the people that are openly jerks on here aren’t even believable or witty about it. Just cruel. Then those of us that are generally here for laughs get sucked into the misery for caring.
I’m dumb actually when it comes to emotions. I don’t know why I think people care. I could write something kind to all of their expressions and they simply ignore mine.
I’m an idiot for being here when it makes me feel so bad.
Mostly I think I’ve been clinging to how it was on EP. The users here that still make you laugh and think bring me back. But maybe it’s time to let it all go. Because every time I log on these days, I feel worse. It’s not just here, it’s humanity in general.
I’m just wasting more time, wasting more words and spending energy on thoughts that mean absolutely nothing to no one.
I write this and can’t stop imagining the rude comments I’m going to get for stating my feelings. It’s weird. It’s super weird how we treat each other.
