I am an introvert

I'm so socially awkward with everyone. I'm the type of person that doesn't make anyone laugh and just make conversation awkward. I've always been shy and just had one or two friends I'm not so close to. But when I got in high school I didn't know anyone there. Now I have no friends, I eat alone. It's not that bad but I just feel like a loser sometimes. Even in middle school the few friends I had stopped talking to me when they got in high school. Plus everyone thinks I'm weird. In middle school no one knew my name. They just identified me as the girl who draws and is always alone. I was not even bullied but sometimes some kids would make fun of me. They took my bag and put it somewhere I couldn't reach it. I don't understand why some people hate me for being weird. What's wrong with it? I'm not that affected by loneliness since I distract myself with games and videos. But it still hurts hearing people calling me a weirdo behind my back or not even remembering who I am after being in the same class with me for years. And I have to lie to my parents and tell them I enjoy school and that I have friends to hang out with.

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Mordechai · 31-35, M

That's okay, you just haven't found your crowd yet. Truth is, you can get along with nearly anyone if you meet them where they're at. It's just having the confidence in yourself to make the first move.

I used to feel that way in highschool, but what opened my eyes later was the realisation that everyone is the same, always thinking about how they're perceived or in their own thoughts.

So basically it means if you ask basic questions even something like if someone sitting next to you looks at you "hey dude, you good?" You'll create rapport and put yourself in the driver's seat. Make people feel interesting by being interested and it works. It's all psychology.

Anyway I hope that helps, it's all a frame of mind and there's nothing "wrong" with you, you're not a loser, no such thing ✌

BobbySpeedy

Thanks for sharing, that took courage. Being awkward doesn’t make you broken; it’s just your way of moving through the world. Drawing and loving games/videos are not flaws, they’re quiet superpowers. People who call you “weird” are usually saying they don’t understand you, not that you’re less valuable. I’m sorry, they made you feel invisible or took your bag, that was mean. If you ever want to vent or swap awkward-conversation survival tips, I’m here. You’re not a loser; you’re a real person with depth, and that matters.

Arrow17 · F

Hi, Precious Soul,

I understand your feeling because I had it when I was young. Those students bully you. Could you attend a self defense class? You need martial arts skills to protect your self from being bully.

Do you live in Asia, Europe or US?

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